Oh, by the way!

We have a washing machine, a lovely, lovely, washing machine, Chris has also mended the drier. Aaaah, no longer do I need to drive to Carrick 2-3 times a week and spend the morning at the washers. Although, last week, they weren’t actually working, so it was a little pointless anyway.

We had a drive up North on Saturday to Letterbreen, to the drier there, but someone else was using it, so we had a drive into Enniskillen and came back and then used it. It took a while, Chris had decided to come in order to spend time with us, I think he thought we’d eat chocolate and have a ‘lovely time’, unfortunately it got a little stressful with all the waiting and it was a wonder we were speaking at all by the end of it. Haha. All is well. Now, anyway :D.

Wooooooo a washer

We’ve been outside quite a bit again recently, it even snowed a little the other day and the children were outside in the dark playing in it.

Don’t know how clear that is, but it was quite dark.

The snow didn’t last long but we’ve been playing outside anyway.

And inside:

And away from home:

Lough Key again.

Life doesn’t have to be how everyone seems to think it should be done. For me, just realising it’s fine to just be with your family most of the time and actually liking it and not pursuing other company or ‘friendship’ just for the sake of it, because that’s what we ‘should’do, trusting God that he’ll bring or send us to the right people, that has been very freeing. I like company and meeting people, and having a community and friends is obviously important, as is listening to God and doing as He says. But I also like being alone fairly frequently. The only time I start to question is when people assume we need more than we have and then I realise. No, it’s fine. It is well with my soul.

It’s like anything really, you’re fine until you get told you need more or different… then that starts the cogs turning.

Just want to quote the second part of a scripture… the first part goes… “for God so loved the world that He gave his only son. That whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life”…

The second part is:

“For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only Son of God.”

John‬ ‭3:17-18‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Sorry about this but… seem to be seeing this more and more recently… Christians (whatever the so called denomination)…. Stop putting other Christians down. Stop assuming you know what their priorities should be. Tell each other what God is doing in your lives. Stop assuming you’re the only ones ‘doing’ something for God. Do what He tells you. Love one another. Work together.

Thankyou and goodnight. Or good morning. Whatever. Good bye 👋

I want to blog without thinking what people think..

I’m going to just post on here today (not f book) and if people want to read they’ll come find it. What I’m finding is, I’m almost secretly in the back of my mind, tailoring content and probably not always putting what I actually want to put, possibly because of what people may think or comment. So here goes.

I’ve just been worshipping on my flute and got onto ‘waiting here for you’ by Christy Nockels. While I was playing, I suddenly remembered that I walked down the aisle to this song, with my dad. Arm in arm. I also realised, I didn’t take enough notice of him that day, I took him for granted. He was delighted, I know that, I noticed that much, he was beaming and happy and did an absolutely awesome speech afterwards. He did a poem from Captain Corelli’s Mandolin about love and what it actually is. The words are actually very true. I realise that now more than I did then. I thought I understood, but I didn’t. I also know that this realisation and memory this morning wrecked me, as in sobbing, heart and gut wrenching pain of missing him and wanting him back. You know what else I’m realising? This is fine. We don’t have to get over anything, we need to live with it, but I don’t need to not feel it, in fact I NEED to feel it, to help recover and move on with living and the realisation again that life is fleeting. This realisation has hit me so much over the last year, I have to battle fear quite regularly. Fear of losing people, fear of not being good enough, fear of not living life to the full, of wasting it. Thing is, this fear, actually takes up a lot of time and energy so does waste time, so I look at Jesus and it goes. Sometimes after a while of wallowing and battling.

I guess I’ve had a lot of change over the years and in the last year, we’ve had another massive one (moving etc). So with it all combined, there’s a lot there. I need to move slow, to trust Jesus, to love Him with all I have. He makes me peaceful. He makes me loving. Without Him or without abiding in Him, I am empty. He fills me and loves me and makes it better. He also lets me feel pain and grieve. He then helps me to love others well.

I guess we can learn from Him.

Blog Block.

I’m having a bit of a blog block at the moment, so don’t write you may say! The thing is, I really want to write so I’ll just see how this goes (again).

There’s things I could write about, family, home, Jesus (I always want to write about Jesus, he is so beautiful and loves us no matter what), things that’ve happened, emotions, but it’s all going a bit blah, blah, blah, when I think about them…

Soooo… Hello. Can I just say as well, please don’t view doing what we have done/are doing as something to aspire to or that will make your life better. It can actually be rather stressful and is something to be seriously considered first. Just thought I’d get that in there. It can also be rather wonderful, but that only tends to be when we let ourselves rejoice again and see the wonderfulness, because the crapness often threatens to take over. A lot of it, as well, is actually just normal life difficulties as well, such as kids screaming for no apparent reason, living in close proximity in a house we are doing up, worry about various things, getting overwhelmed, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. haha.

again, a verse I love keeps coming to mind…Phillipians 4:4-9.

Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice.  Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand;  do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.  And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me—practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.

Please don’t think I put these verses to lecture you or anything, it’s more because I just love what they say, how it is put, that it is what is true and good and that most of all it comes from Jesus. I need to meditate on it and spend time with Him, He is my maker and He shows us what love is. Love so great that He died in our place. For us. So we could be free.


Do we have freedom? We’re supposed to have it. Do we live in it? I don’t think so. I watched a talk recently by Tim Keller on the Gospel Shaped Life. It was recommended by a friend and one of the things Tim Keller talks about is that God does not heap burdens on us, Jesus actually says in Matthew 11:28-30:

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Isn’t that simple and beautiful? come to Jesus and He will give you rest. I’m going to come to Jesus again. He is everything. I didn’t really leave, I always want to be with Him, but my focus definitely shifts sometimes or becomes a little hazy, His does not though. He never leaves.

I went to the dentist!

Funny thing this morning, well funny to me, I tried to get onto the blog site from Bing and it wouldn’t let me, it let me from Google, so that’s weird. But anyway, I’m here! Hello again!

I had the second and hopefully final part of my root canal done yesterday, it seems to be fine at the moment, no pain, my jaw aches, but that’s about it. Interestingly though, I asked about children’s dental checks whilst I was there because there didn’t seem to be any as far as I could make out. The dental receptionist actually said the dental care for children in Ireland is poor. Apparently they get seen through school, but I ‘think’ she said not until later on in infants, not in the first year and other than that, you have to book them in and pay 30 euro’s per appointment, even if you have a medical card (I think that’s right, that’s the impression I got). I have to say, the dental care I’ve had here, has been really good, and not that expensive either, to say it is private, so this shocked me a bit. Although it does also seem to be very much in the realm of deal with problems when they occur, rather than prevention of problems. I was really well looked after growing up in the UK, we had a brilliant dentist who taught us how to brush our teeth properly, talked to and educated us, made it (almost) fun to go to the dentist and I’ve had really good dental health until now (and this was only one tooth). I think this was also because my mum and dad were really strict on brushing regularly and drinking plenty of milk etc. I guess when you grown up with the NHS you get used to it and used to the privileges it gives you. I’d try and keep it if I were you!

Moving smoothly on with a link to the next subject, I guess we will be paying for our children’s dental checks then, as we’ve finally taken the decision to home school, at least for now. As I put in a post on Instagram, I know a lot of people will say WHYYYYY?? and won’t understand. But you know what, you don’t have to! I’ve prayed about it for a long time and we’ve made the decision and are quite excited about it, as is J. So instead of the why, try saying yay! and good for you! You can home school in Ireland, you just have to register with TUSLA and have a home visit before the child is six and you need a room with wall space to show art work. So here we go on our tentative journey. I’ve already seen that there are fairly regular meet ups so I guess we will start there. I’ve been thinking about it for a fair number of years, so I’m not completely ignorant of what is required, but I’m sure there will be some surprises along the way.

So good bye for now.


Happy New(ish) year :D

Hello! I’ve realised that I haven’t written anything since before New Year so hello and welcome again.

One of the reasons is, that its been pretty quiet really, well, on the home front. Not much news regarding the house to report. Both cars are up and running again, which is great, (and Chris worked so hard on them). When we’re down to one, I have to take Chris to work and collect him again and it can get so I’m driving for a few hours a day with having to wash and dry our clothes elsewhere too at the mo and with shopping and just getting out really. Not sure if I’ve said, but both our washer and drier have now packed in. Which is fine in some ways and not so much in others. The washers (and shops) that we generally go to are about 35 minutes away, Chris’s work is about half an hour away. The play centre (we go there sometimes, not every week) is about an hour away, even Drumshanbo, where we sometimes go to the park and boardwalk, is about 20 minutes away.

What I discovered this week is if I go North (as in Northern Ireland), the washing machine which is at a petrol station is actually more sophisticated than the ones down here. Even though it’s the same company – Revolution Laundry. You can get fabric conditioner *for a price, and…you can actually pay on your card! Albeit, on our UK card, or we would be charged by our Irish banking people. Which is sort of swings and roundabouts because at some point we’ll have to transfer money into our British account and that will probably incur a charge too…. It all feels very complicated sometimes…

A lot of the huge trees by the side of the house are still in place, Chris felled about ten, it was slightly scary, they’re massive, but they all (I think), went in the planned direction. Then we realised how much work was going to be involved in chopping them up, so it’s on hold at the moment. Slight scary also though, when we’ve had the recent stormy weather and I’ve been watching them swaying in the very strong wind… also quite amazing.

So, it’s 2020, I’ve seen posts etc about 20/20 vision etc, I’d actually like that for real, I don’t like wearing glasses. I’m waiting and praying at the moment, I feel it’s just so important to spend time with God yourself and be expectant and prepared to just walk your everyday life with God. Asking for Him to give you eyes to see and ears to hear and courage to do. I feel that my family is the most important factor in my walk with him at the moment and I’m just thinking about how that looks in reality. He’s also re-spoken a word to me today about Simplicity – live in it. God gave me this word quite a long time ago now, I’ve just looked on my phone notes and it was in October 2018 and I have to admit, life has been far more complex than I would like it to be. Mainly because of how I’ve made it. So I’m thinking about and doing this at the moment. Simplicity. What is it. What does it mean practically. Part of it is getting rid of expectations that aren’t of God I think. Simple faith. Trust. Hope. Love. Gratitude. Thankfulness. Forgiveness. Doing what God has given me to do. Here. Or wherever I am. Sounds simple haha.